I would love to spend on you. I so would love to.
But I can’t. I can’t spend on you because I have nothing. I can’t pick up my phone and call home for money like others do. I don’t have a bank account that is filled with money or a rich uncle or aunt who spoils me with kind. I’m struggling. Yes I am but I still put on a smiling face.
You may be surprised, or not. But that is my reality.
I look nothing like one who struggles to get something to eat daily.
I also look nothing like one who has worn the same clothes for several years, but that is my reality.
You innocently ask from me. But all that does is remind me that I can’t take care of you.
I can’t give you what others do. No I can’t, but I have a lot to give when it comes to love. I have a lot to give when it comes to trust and faithfulness. A lot to give when it concerns care.
Please don’t confuse me as helpless though. Please don’t confuse me either, as praying on you for help. My plight is a sad one, but one that is temporal.
So please understand me when I say I have nothing. It hurts so much when I say so.
It’s my unfortunate reality.
~ September 20th 2017
MikeTsatsu 